When I was 21 years old I had a conversation with God that I
believe changed the course of my life. I told God, actually begging, that I
wanted to “be all I could be for Him”. I
told God it didn’t matter what it would cost me, how much it would hurt, or how
difficult it would be…I still wanted God to hold me to that request.
Looking back, I now know several decades later how naïve I
was. I did not actually think there
would be a cost, or would hurt, or would be difficult. I actually thought it would be grand and
glorious, and that it would be easy.
Understand that I have been blessed, just not like I
expected to be blessed. In a way, the biggest
blessings have come from tremendous adversity and great pain. What I learned along the way is that often
when I lose something that I cherished, God replaced it with the gift of
Himself. I learned that nothing,
absolutely nothing, is more precious than God’s love and care for me.
I also learned that when I suffer, God suffers with me. I now cherish those times.
Today I would tell God the same words. When I was 21 I was passionate about telling
others about the real Jesus – not someone who sits back and throws lightning
bolts – but someone who loves them and who died for them.
When I talk to God, I bask in His love and He gives me what He wants
me to be. I thank Him for being always faithful
and for being right here.
Have you had similar life-changing conversations? If you haven't, what would you like to say to God?
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